omg i've just got back from being out on a date and it was wonderful. Its not the guy i was chatting to prior to christmas but a new guy i met on the net just over a week ago and i really really like him. We are going out again probably Wednesday yay i'm soooooo happy

I've kind of met this guy on the net and been texting him since the start of December and will probably be arranging to meet up with him soon i seriously hope its works out he seems so nice and i really like him, oh well fingers crossed X

OMG Seth Lakeman OMG Yes live OMG only 2 meters away OMG

All i can say is WOW he was amazing!!!!!!!

I went with my best friend to the Moseley folk festival and saw ............

Yes Seth Lakeman

I took a few video clips







We managed to get centre stage with only 1 person in front of us who wasn't that tall. My god it was the best.

We also saw morcheeba but we were quite far away from the stage that night and i was only using my mobile phone camera but here are the clips.

I have found out through a mutual friend (who has been very good to me) that he was only well I say ONLY after £5,000 and that he didn't mean to hurt me like he did. My friend then spoke to him at length about why he thinks he is due anything. The outcome of this was that Colin has now begrudgingly said that he would let me go for £3,500. What a nice guy he is NOT.

As much as I want to fight him and see that he gets nothing our stupid law system will almost certainly force me to pay him something. So I am probably going to give up and just let him have the £3,500 just so that I can get him out of my life and try to move on. I have always known that life is not fair but does it has to kick me in the teeth every few years just to prove it.

Once this is all over if I never see him again it will bee to soon. I realise he is just a cowardly greedy sheep who wants everything anyone else has but unlike everyone else is not prepared to work for it like I had to.

Through all this he has managed taint all my good memories with the thoughts that in the end he was only ever after my money. Not that I don't have enough self issues to deal with I now have a new one to add to the list.

He was the first none friend or family member to say that he loved me. I think I was around 20 when I met him and he was my first boyfriend sad I know but no one had ever been interested in me before and I thought this is it finally someone who can see through the outside image and see me inside. How wrong I was I was just a meal ticket. I feel like such an idiot.

He must have thought it was his lucky day when he met me I was so pathetically grateful for the attention that I could not see through the rose tinted glasses the person he really was and turned out to be. I used my hard earned savings to save him from his crippling debts that he had built up and asked for no interest just for him to pay me back slowly as and when he could. Not that much longer after I had done this he left his secure job and started temping. I still could not see his true character even when he took advantage of his temping jobs to the point of being asked to leave more than one as he was taking the piss with going on the internet or not working hard enough. His response was well everybody else did it and got away with it so why couldn't he. This then affected his ability to get other jobs and from that point on he was out of work as much as he was in work drifting from one temping job to another. For a time he lived rent and contribution free at my parents house with me. Until I was in a position with the help of my parents to buy my own home with my parents taking a 90% charge on the property (Thank god they did). I still stood by him and even married him what a sap I am. He continued to struggle to hold down a job and was out of work for half the time we were married. Slowly but surely the glasses slid from my eyes till I could take no more of his lies and we separated.

He has since got it into his head that I should pay him more of my hard earned money and savings, not that I have already done enough for him. He has said that I made him feel like a second class citizen and did not support him enough when he was out of work and (the following is taken from the divorce petition which he has signed to say that he agrees with everything contained in it)"that he has been made to feel humiliated by me and that he is a second class member of the family and that he has lost all love and affection for me as a result of my unreasonable behaviour and demands upon him".

The lies and exaggerations he has told his solicitor make me sound like the evil step mom and him Cinderella, when all I did was love him do everything I could for him help him and try to improve his life. I know I am not completely without fault I did nag him a lot (although I feel that a lot of it was deserved) and towards the end I did start to resent him for not being able to hold down a regular job. There is a lot more to it but there is no point going over it over and over again (I will leave that up to my own mind to do as I know it will for many years to come).

All I feel for him now is hate and disappointment.

Sorry for the rant but I could not sleep and I am hoping that by writing it down it will help my to stop thinking and allow me to rest.

How could he do this? I knew he was a waste of space but how could he hurt me like this.

Colin has filed for a divorce and blaming the break up on me. He has taken every bad thing that happened while we were together and found a way to turn it against me and blame it on me. He has used this and some out and out lies to instruct a solicitor and petition for a divorce on the grounds of unreasonable behaviour (supposedly mine). Now here comes the worst bit he is not only after the house the petition also states that he is going to claim his sols costs from me.

Now I have 2 options
1) I consent to the divorce as per the petition accept responsibility and potentially have to fork over half my share of my home half my savings and potentially half my pension.
2) I contest the divorce petition and have to fight him in court and pay a fortune to a solicitor with no guarantee that I will win and potentially have to pay everything from option 1 as well.

How can it all be so unfair?
For making one stupid mistake in marrying a prat I may have ruined my whole life.
And he luckily finds me a gullible sap and gets all his debts cleared when we met and takes me to the cleaners when I realise my mistake.

I am so angry why would he do this i never thought he could be so evil.

Hi all i am a little confused right now and hope you can give me some advice.

Right here goes.

I asked my husband to leave because he was constantly lying to me and said that he had given up on us.

My parents have a 90% charge on the house so if we did get divorced he would only have access to 5% of the properties value.
We also discussed about what would happen if we ever did separate for whatever reason and colin said that as long as he had around 5k to set him up he wouldn't ask for anything else. At the time we had this conversation i never thought it would happen and even if it did that it would be years and years away and that he would not have spent nearly half of them out of work.
Since we have been married (it would have been 2 years on the 2nd July) he has been out of work for nearly 1 whole year on and off.
Also when i met him he had loads of debt and it seemed stupid for him to be paying so much in interest and me have the money in the bank. So i cleared his debts and he was going to pay me back each month. He still owes me over 1k

Now here is my problem i don't want to give him 5k if we get divorced. I would be happy to write-off the money he owes me but that's about it. Do you think that is fair or going back on what we agreed?

Dad gave me a copy of the photos he has been taking of my Garden Fence before during and after it had fallen down (because the previous owner did not use any posts and just screwed it to next doors fence). And more importantly my kitchen, its not that close to being finished but i love it already.

Fence









This is the kitchen before it dosen't look to bad but the actual workmanship and finishings were crap.




Same view




now with new units in




And finaly the living room when the kitchen arrived




I will post more pic's when its finished or at least nearly finished.

Why I life so hard. I have been having a really hard time with Colin for a while now and it only seems to be getting worse. We had a long talk either Sunday or Monday and I asked him to follow 3 principles which I didn't think would be THAT difficult:-
1) No lies at all
2) If you say you are going to do something then do it
3) To be on time when I ask him to meet me somewhere
Today he broke 2 of them. I cannot put up with this for much longer and if things don't change we won't even make it to Christmas let alone our 2nd wedding anniversary. I feel really shit and I know I am not perfect but I think I am entitled to at least the 3 above things. What can I do I have tried explaining why and how much it hurts me when he lies and I am really at my wits end. I still love him but that makes it worse because I don't want to kick him out but it’s making me miserable.

Here are a couple of photos taken with my phone I am quite impressed they look so good. Sirena I have included the one you wanted a copy of. If you want it in another format just remind me of you e-mail address. I know I have it somewhere but it will make it easier




That was a cool night :)




I always liked this one I think it looks real cool and would take a lot of adjusting to look really old.



And finally one of my niece

I've done 92 out of 150 stupid things and some of them bring back some good memories.

Level 1
(x) Smoked a Cigarette (I think trying one counts)
( ) Smoked a Cigar
(x) Drank Alcohol

Level 2
(x) Been In Love
(x) Been Dumped
( ) Shoplifted
( ) Been Fired
(x) Been In A Fist Fight (I am counting being in a slap fight without fighting back)

Level 3
(x) Snuck Out Of a Parent's House
(x) Had Feelings for Someone Who Didn't Have Them Back
(x) Made Out With a Stranger (Well I only met him that night)
( ) Went Out On a Blind Date

Level 4
(x) Had a Crush on an Older Person
(x) Skipped School (The only time was when my mom took me to meet the queen and told my primary school that I had a dentist’s appointment)
( ) Slept With a Co-worker
( ) Seen Someone / Something Die

Level 5
(x) Had / Have a Crush on Someone Who Is On Your Buddy List
(x) Been To Paris
(x) Been To Spain
(x) Been On a Plane
(x) Thrown Up From Drinking

Level 6
(x) Eaten Sushi
(x) Been Snowboarding (and couldn’t do it)
( ) Met Someone BECAUSE Of Myspace
( ) Been Mosh Pitting

Level 7
( ) Been In an Abusive Relationship
(x) Taken Pain Killers
(x) Loved / Liked Someone Who You Can’t (Couldn't) Have
(x) Laid On Your Back and Watched Cloud Shapes Go By
(x) Made a Snow Angel

Level 8
(x) Had a Tea Party
(x) Flown a Kite
(x) Built Sand Castle
(x) Gone Puddle Jumping
(x) Played Dress Up

Level 9
(x) Jumped Into a Pile of Leaves
(x) Gone Sledding
(x) Cheated While Playing a Game
(x) Been Lonely
(x) Fallen Asleep At Work / School

Level 10
( ) Used a Fake / Someone Else's ID
(x) Watched the Sun Set
(x) Felt an Earthquake
( ) Killed a Snake

Level 11
(x) Been Tickled
(x) Been Robbed / Vandalized (when I lived at home with my parents the house was robbed while we were asleep upstairs)
( ) Robbed Someone
(x) Been Misunderstood
(x) Pet a Deer (At West Mids Safari Park)

Level 12
(x) Won a Contest
( ) Been Suspended From School
(x) Had Detention
(x) Been In a Car / Motorcycle Accident

Level 13
(x) Had / Have Braces
(x) Eaten a Whole Pint of Ice Cream in One Night
(x) Had Deja Vu
(x) Danced in the rain

Level 14
(x) Hated the Way You Look
( ) Witnessed a Crime
( ) Pole Danced
(x) Questioned Your Heart
(x) Been Obsessed With Post-It Notes

Level 15
(x) Squished Barefoot through the Mud (Yep it was great I was in Turkey and having a mud bath)
(x) Been Lost
(x) Been To The Opposite Side of the World (only if you count the Caribbean)
(x) Swam in the Ocean
(x) Felt Like You Were Dying

Level 16
(x) Cried Yourself to Sleep
(x) Played Cops and Robbers
(x) Recently Colored With Crayons / Colored Pencils / Markers
(x) Sang Karaoke
(x) Paid For a Meal with Only Coins

Level 17
(x) Done Something You Told Yourself You Wouldn't
( ) Made Prank Phone Calls
(x) Laughed Until Some Kind of Beverage Came Out Of Your Nose

Level 18
(x) Written a Letter to Santa Claus
( ) Been Kissed Under A Mistletoe
(x) Watched the Sun Set With Someone You Care / Cared About
(x) Blown Bubbles
( ) Made a Bonfire on the Beach

Level 19
( ) Crashed a Party
( ) Have Travelled More Than 5 Days with A Car Full Of People
(x) Gone Roller-skating / Blading
(x) Had a Wish Come True
(x) Been Humped by a Dog / Cat

Level 20
(x) Worn Pearls (unfortunately only fakes)
( ) Jumped Off a Bridge
(x) Swam With Dolphins (yes I have)

Level 22
(x) Got Your Tongue Stuck To a Pole / Freezer / Ice Cube
( ) Kissed a Fish
(x) Worn the Opposite Sex's Clothes
(x) Sat on a Roof Top

Level 23
(x) Screamed At the Top of Your Lungs
( ) Done / Attempted a One-Handed Cartwheel
(x) Talked On the Phone for More Than 6 Hours
(x) Stayed up All Night

Level 24
(x) Picked and Ate an Apple Right Off the Tree
(x) Climbed a Tree
( ) Had A Tree House (not one of my own)
(x) Scared to Watch Scary Movies Alone (only occasionally)

Level 25
( ) Believe In Ghosts
( ) Have / Had More Then 30 Pairs of Shoes At Once
( ) Gone Streaking

Level 26
( ) Played Chicken
(x) Been Pushed Into a Pool with All Your Clothes On
( ) Been Told You're Hot ("Cute") By a Complete Stranger
( ) Broken a Bone
(x) Been Easily Amused

Level 27
(x) Caught A Fish Then Ate It...After it was cooked!
(x) Caught a Butterfly
(x) Laughed So Hard You Cried
(x) Cried So Hard You Laughed

Level 28
( ) Mooned / Flashed Someone
( ) Had Someone Moon / Flash You
(x) Cheated On a Test
(x) Forgotten Someone's Name
(x) Slept Naked
( ) French Braided someone’s Hair
( ) Gone Skinny Dipping In a Pool
( ) Been Kicked Out Of Your House

Level 29
(x) Rode a Roller Coaster
(x) Went Scuba-Diving / Snorkelling (both are great fun)
(x) Had a Cavity
( ) Black-Mailed Someone
( ) Been Black Mailed

Level 31
(x) Been Used
(x) Fell Going up The Stairs
( ) Bit (Or Licked) A Cat
(x) Bitten Someone
(x) Licked Someone

Level 32
( ) Been Shot At (pellet gun)
( ) Flattened Someone's Tires
( ) Rode Your Car until the Gas Light Came On
( ) Got Five Dollars or Less Worth Of Gas

Sorry i have stolen this from Kendas:-


On-line journals are little filters that we each see every one else's lives through, the parts others choose to share with us. That said, we all think we are close, but really we seldom know *a lot* about each other. So I want you to ask me something you think you should know about me. Something that should be obvious, but you have no idea about. Ask away.

Then post this in your LJ/GJ and find out what people don't know about you.

Well ask away.

I have just remembered i took a couple of vid's on my phone from when we were in the bar. Well here goes, lets see if i can work out how to put them on here :)





crap it didn't work i will try and work on it to see if i can get it to work another time.

Sorry

I have just been reading all the fan fiction Kendas has in her “My Fan Fiction:” section that I have not already read and I just have to say I forgot how amazingly good her writing is. As I am not at work today I was planning on shopping and possible going to the cinema but I have ended up just reading all day. Once I start reading a story I just cannot stop. I remember the last time I was reading fan fics and they almost took over all of my spare time i.e. any time I wasn’t at work and I was a mere millimetre away from buying an e-book reader so that I could continue reading on my way to work lunch breaks and on my way home from work.

At Kendas suggestion I have posted this on my journal.
I think it’s quite apt in places.

IF YOUR LIFE WAS A MOVIE, WHAT WOULD THE SOUNDTRACK BE?
So, here's how it works:
1. Open your library (iTunes, Winamp, Media Player, iPod, etc)
2. Put it on shuffle
3. Press play
4. For every question, type the song that's playing
5. When you go to a new question, press the next button
6. Don't lie.

Opening Credits:
The Saga Begins (Weird Al Yankovic)

Waking Up:
Boy Band (Mitch Benn)

First Day At School:
One-way system blues (Mitch Benn)

Playtime/Childhood:
West end musical (Mitch Benn)

Falling In Love:
I'm Still here (Mitch Benn)

Fight Song:
multiple personality (Mitch Benn)

Breaking Up:
hardest song in the world to find (Mitch Benn)

Prom:
Angry white boy polka (Weird Al Yankovic)

Life's OK:
Grapefruit Diet (Weird Al Yankovic)

Mental Breakdown:
Can't do disco (Mitch Benn)

Driving:
Stinky Pants (Mitch Benn)

Flashback:
You smell but I love you (Mitch Benn)

Getting Back Together:
Pretty Fly for a Rabbi (Weird Al Yankovic)

Wedding:
Trash Day (Weird Al Yankovic)

Birth of Child:
Scary Weirdo’s (Mitch Benn)

Final Battle:
We haven't got a clue (Mitch Benn)

Death Scene:
Tea Party (Mitch Benn)

Funeral Song:
Please don't release this song (Mitch Benn)

End Credits:
Never mind the song {look at the stage set} (Mitch Benn)

Ok so I only have Mitch Benn and Weird Al (both comic music for those that don't know) on my mobile at the moment but I think some of them work lol.

I am still waiting for Jebs Jobs 3 but boy do love Jebs jobs its just so funny.

http://www.weakendproductions.co.uk/movs/jebsjobs.html

I have set this up so that i can keep in touch with my best friend i know i am really crap at keeping in touch and phoning and i hope i will be forgiven for that.

I have realized of late that i only see my best friend at someone else's house for which i feel awful.

I am unlikely to write much on here very often but i am hoping that by reading her journal i will be able to keep up to date with what is going on in her life.

I never want to loose her friendship and i know we are all going through hard times at the moment and i dearly hope we can get back to what we used to have because i have really missed her.

Well that all